It is truly difficult to forgive people you have loved deeply when they have wounded deeply, and never apologized.
Sometimes I think I have let things go by praying prayers of forgiveness. Then like a speeding car out of a side street I get blindsided in my mind again.
This morning the Lord whispered to my heart that I had prayed the words of forgiveness, but had not cancelled the debt.
I am still mad at them. They still owe me. This is not forgiveness.
So back to the Cross I go again, repenting of my hard heart and self-righteousness, remembering all of my own sins.
I am so grateful for Amazing Grace. This time, with God’s help, I will cancel the debt, release the anger, and set them free.
Until then, I am not free.
Mark 11:25-26 “And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses.”